Why

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Dear Mom,

Why did you let him stay the night? Why did I have to be so young? Why didn't I just say no? Why were you so mean? Why was I afraid to tell you? Why did you have to make me afraid of you? Why didn't you see what he was doing to me? Oh yes, you were bowling...

Why couldn't he pick on someone else? Why was it me? I was only 5, what could I do? Why didn't you ever come into my bedroom while he was there? Oh right, he is your brother, why would he possibly want to hurt me?

Why do I still remember, 30 years later? Why does it seem like yesterday? Why, when I think of my childhood, is that the first thing to pop in my head? Why do I worry about hurting my family when my family didn't worry about hurting me? Why should I care about what happens to him now? He didn't care what happened to me then....

Why would I lose my family if I tell now? Why would they hate me? Would I be lying? Would I be looking for attention? Who would want that kind of attention?

Could someone please tell me WHY!!!!!

Love always,
Your son - Chip / Marshall / RudeDog