Sleepy Sleep

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Man am I tired... But that age old question has been haunting me again.... Why?

I've started considering talking to my mom again about my past.. I'm having a very hard time with holding this in anymore and just want burst at the seems....

I have, however, been frequenting a support forums site and with learning that I'm not alone helps... But what really helps is knowing I'm not the only male in the world this has happened to...

My brain isn't frying over this today... Can't you tell? I'm not my usual creative self that I turn into when I'm dwelling on something soooo much that my head hurts... I really think that site is a little help...

Reading post from other people that have gone through what I have gone through and showing the same personality I have... I thought I was doing a good job of forgetting.. I'm finding out that the way I am is linked to what happened to me as a 5 year old.. I'm finding this out because I'm seeing others that have done or are doing the exact same thing I have...

I know that here I have yet to say what happened to me... I'm also sure anyone that has read this knows just by what they have read... I make the words between the lines really stand out and smack a mofo without actually typing them.. Maybe, one day I will type the words here... I really really want to.... But my fingers just won't do it... My brain is telling them to, but they just can't seem to find the keys...

One day.....

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Well, on another front... As the team turns is coming right along... Playa has managed to piss off everyone but me... I don't know how... Well, him and World... They will get over it.. I hope...

2s... All Playa did was refuse to look at a picture.. Geez....

BigMark... Long story... I don't know both sides, so I can't really form an opinion..

But, Playa likes to call me and keep me informed LOL... I don't mind.. I like hearing the latest scoop...

Ok, enough of that... Bedtime...

Hey Kurt!!! See that hairy spot by daddy's ass????

Chip / RudeDog