Once in a while

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A day comes along that makes me remember why I'm still on this earth...

I took my son Pat to the NASCAR race at Michigan International Speedway last Sunday.... We had a BLAST.... It was his first NASCAR event... I'm so glad that I was the one to take him...




Adam was bugging me to go.... I felt bad telling him no, but I didn't have another ticket for him... So, I told him he wasn't old enough....

I think next year I'm going to take both Adam and Pat.... Adam cheered up when I got home with his Tony Stewart hat though...

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While I was trying to have a good time with Pat, I called Jenny a couple times in the morning and she was already fed up with the kids... Not sure if she realized it or not, but she was laying one hell of a guilt trip on me.... So, I decided not to call again and planned on not answering any calls from her... I was trying to have fun with Pat...

Then, after I get home.... This is after 3.5 hours of driving starting at 1:30 am (and I was up all day to boot), spent the entire day at the track.... Sunburnt to hell... Got back to Pat's house at 9pm or so.... Then drove for another 2 hours to get home... And she complains because SHE is tired... I just rolled over and went to sleep...

I guess I'm not allowed to have a long day... Over 24 hours with no sleep and SHE is complaining about being tired... I just rolled over and went to sleep...

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Welp, guess it's bedtime... Gotta get up early and go hide from the FOC fucker... I really hope our morgage goes through sometime really really soon....

Chip

In Loving Memory

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ALTER BRIDGE

"In Loving Memory"

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me


[Thanks to Creedlife84@yahoo.com for these lyrics]

I love you Jodi... I'll be with you again one day..

Getting Sick

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I don't want to be here any more... I'm getting sick... Sick of being here...

My kids can't keep their hands off of anything....

Finding clothes for myself is a major job... I have to dig through PILES and PILES of kids clothes and Jenny's clothes just to find a fucking shirt.... Finding a pair of socks in this place is a major accomplishment in my life....

Can't find my shoes.... The kids moved them...

I'm just sick of it....

Sick of going to bed at night to a back..... Sick of hearing complaints about not coming to bed earlier.... What do I have to go to bed for.... Stare at a back.... woooohoooo..... That's my kind of fun...

Sick of hiding.... Sick of running.... Sick of feeling...... Sick of not feeling.... Sick of being here..... Sick of liv..................................

I'm sick of this blogger not working at all....

Here I am

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It's been a very long time since I've been here.... Many things have come about in the last couple weeks.... I've had my highs and my lows...

High - I finally had my kids... God I missed them.... I didn't realize just how much I missed them until I seen them.... I can't thank Kurt enough for what he put himself through to help me pay for my night.... It allowed me to get my kids WAY early and spend some great time with them...

Low - My grandfather died last night... What really sets it low for me though is that I'm not sure I'm sad about it... My grandfather and I were never close what so ever.... Ok, I've had enemies that were closer.... It's not that we didn't get along.... I just didn't really know him even though our family spent a lot of time with my grandparents... Now I'm going to be a palbarrer at his funeral for someone I really don't know...

Low - My uncle was over there (it was his dad) while I went to see my grandma.... Her I am close to... But, because of the situation, I have to be civil.... Aside from my mom and dad, no one else knows about what happened to me.... This just isn't the time to bring this subject up to the rest of the family....

Low - I have to deal with my uncle throughout the funeral... I have a feeling that it will not be a good thing to do...

High - I seen my kids last week..........

Kids

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Aren't kids grand?

I was on my way to work yesterday when Kurt called my on the cell and asked me if I wanted a trip to Toledo....

Well, hell yes I took it.... And, on the way back, I stopped by to see my kids from my ex-wife... I haven't seen them in over a year and damn it.... It was great to see them.... Hell, as a matter of fact, they came home with me LMAO.... I have them until Sunday....

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Above The Mat is going to be coming back on August 15th... Should be good.... I hope so.... I really do love that show, but it just isn't attracting the listener base I was hoping for....

Rob says he will pay for the advertisement I've been giving him for free all this time to help with phone bills.... And we have another guy that wants to advertise on the show... A morgage company.... wierd eh?

Supposably, we are going to start getting more guest on the show.... Hell, I've been trying to tell these guys that for a year or so....

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Kurt and I will be broadcasting a nascar race in September..... LMAO... An online race with a nascar racing game.... Not the real nascar.... Should be fun....

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I'm happy today.... I have my kids.... The show is being planned out for our restart.... Life is good right now... Right now....

Chip / Marshall

One little, two little.....

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I finally got to talk to my kids from my first wife the other day.... God did it feel good to hear their voices again... I've missed them sooooo much... I'm going to see them on Friday.... I can't wait....

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Chip