Here I am

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It's been a very long time since I've been here.... Many things have come about in the last couple weeks.... I've had my highs and my lows...

High - I finally had my kids... God I missed them.... I didn't realize just how much I missed them until I seen them.... I can't thank Kurt enough for what he put himself through to help me pay for my night.... It allowed me to get my kids WAY early and spend some great time with them...

Low - My grandfather died last night... What really sets it low for me though is that I'm not sure I'm sad about it... My grandfather and I were never close what so ever.... Ok, I've had enemies that were closer.... It's not that we didn't get along.... I just didn't really know him even though our family spent a lot of time with my grandparents... Now I'm going to be a palbarrer at his funeral for someone I really don't know...

Low - My uncle was over there (it was his dad) while I went to see my grandma.... Her I am close to... But, because of the situation, I have to be civil.... Aside from my mom and dad, no one else knows about what happened to me.... This just isn't the time to bring this subject up to the rest of the family....

Low - I have to deal with my uncle throughout the funeral... I have a feeling that it will not be a good thing to do...

High - I seen my kids last week..........