Dear Jodi

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Dear Jodi,

Hi... I haven't talked to you in a very long time... I didn't forget you, I've just been busy... Busy with nothing.... Busy with everything...

I finally opened up about that deep dark secret that you and I held for so long.... I told mom about Charlie and what he did to me....

She actually had the nerve to ask me why I didn't say anything... I think that I finally got it through her thick skull that she was very abusive and I was afraid of her... That we were afraid of her...

She did, however, believe me.... It seems that the same thing happened to other members of our family and it was just brushed under the rug.... This person wants to talk to me now.... I don't know if I can... I'm scared Jodi.... But at the same time, I'm pissed... I'm relieved... But most of all.... I'm scared...

I'm scared members of our family won't believe me.... I know some do... I've been talking to Nicki.... She's helping a bit... It's good to have someone to talk to.. But I know that others will tell me that I'm crazy because I'm male... Charlie would never do that, they will say....

Jodi, I miss you so very much.... I miss having my best friend around to help me with my problems... I miss having you there to tell me everything will be ok.... I miss having you here to tell me how much of a fuck up I am....

I'll be with you again one day.... Not one day soon... My life is starting now that I am finally working on putting my past behind me.... I have many good years left in me.... But one day....

I love you sis...

Chip